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A cute friendly creature we often see on our morning walks.

I’m not going to lie, this has been a long, fairly shit-house week. And yet it still had some highlights and lovely things - so that is what I’ll focus on, for that is the Philippa Moore Way. When you’re in the arena of life, you can’t get bogged down by feedback from the cheap seats. Onwards!

Looking forward to

A break over Easter. Reorganising my book shelves. Maybe seeing friends on the mainland again soon. Making Nigella’s vegan gingerbread again!

Reading

What I Talk About When I Talk About Running by Haruki Murakami - I haven’t read this book in years. It was an old favourite in my marathon days, and now that I think about it, a real influence on The Latte Years too. I have been running for sixteen years now and, like Murakami, my journey as a writer has unfolded in parallel and there are so many similar lessons and challenges. I keep running now to, as he puts it, “maintain, and improve, my physical condition in order to keep on writing novels”! It was nice to spend time with this old friend again, and even nicer to find my old Up and Running postcard bookmark. Good times.

The Master’s Tools Will Never Dismantle The Master’s House by Audre Lorde - this is just phenomenal and a wonderful introduction to her work.

Creative Histories of Witchcraft: Magpieing, sparking the creative process by Anna Compton. I just love reading about other people’s creative processes. I engage in quite a bit of magpieing myself!

Three-Martini Afternoons at The Ritz: The Rebellion of Sylvia Plath and Anne Sexton by Gail Crowther - only a few chapters in and LOVING it.

I also enjoyed many of the articles and blog posts on Gail Crowther’s wonderful website - particularly What Sylvia Plath Can Teach Us About Gaslighting which felt particularly pertinent this week.

Vox: How To Forgive Someone Who Isn’t Sorry by my old blogging and running pal Rachel Wilkerson Miller. “Forgiveness is my safety valve against the kind of toxic anger that could kill me…waiting for the apology is to misunderstand your free will, and it’s to misunderstand the medicine that is forgiveness, that you should be able to take freely, whatever you want.”

Julia Bausenhart: Why I Quit Social Media

Jen McLeary: Why I Am Leaving Social Media For Real This Time

I’ve also continued reading My Body by Emily Ratajkowski but, to be honest, I am finding it very triggering. Should I keep going, knowing it is an important book and it is vital that stories like this are shared - or should I shield myself from reliving my own painful experiences, and continue to suppress the rage I feel for what so many women have been subjected to? Thoughts welcome.

Listening to

My Running playlist!

The First Time Podcast: Masters Series: Sarah Winman - an absolute must for any writer, I loved every minute of this one. Perfect for walking to work and getting ready to face the page.

BeWILDered with Martha Beck and Rowan Mangan: Comparing Lives and On Top of Things?

James and Ashley Stay At Home: Living with ambiguous loss with Erin Stewart

Eating

I have not had much of an appetite and thus have not enjoyed my food as much this week. But these were the highlights:

Rick’s pasta - our last jar of capers had gone off so we used green olives instead, which was pretty delicious. I didn’t think it was possible for capers to go off, but there they were in the jar, a mouldy pink like the scum that grows at the bottom of the shower. Gross!

Pumpkin-topped cottage pie - a recipe I was intrigued by in the Woolworths magazine, which I veganised. TVP instead of mince, an easy swap! Very delicious, served with beans from the garden.

Vegan chickpea curry jacket potatoes - I was lazy and used tandoori paste instead of the spices, which turned out very nicely.

We also polished off the last of the cocoa brownies I made from Leah Hyslop’s The Brownie Diaries.

Picking

It’s all been about greens and beans this week. I also threw some of the last strawberries and figs into our morning smoothies. There are still plenty of tomatoes that seem to redden overnight like magic, and the potatoes will be ready to pull up soon. I also bought some mustard green seedlings at the Botanical Gardens for a bargain $2 each, so I hope those will be a bountiful source of winter greens.

Watching

I watched the first two episodes of Season Two of Star Trek Picard (Amazon Prime) for my darling husband, and they actually weren’t too bad! Patrick Stewart makes anything bearable!

Wearing/applying

Modibodis - these have changed my life and I only wish they had been around 28 years ago. My very first pad is probably still in landfill somewhere, which is a haunting and horrifying thought indeed. It feels a bit odd to finally be embracing the power of my cycle, only to know I may not have it for much longer. It is very weird indeed to be asked by your GP “are you still getting your periods?” but I guess that’s to be expected. I am 40 now, after all!

Favourite experiences of the week

The article about my Nan and her Anzac biscuits in this month’s Australian Country Style - we were at the shops first thing on Thursday to get a copy!

A bolstering and productive meeting with my PhD supervisors, who are kind, perceptive and deeply intelligent women who truly get what I’m trying to do and always offer the right encouragement when I need it. I couldn’t be happier or luckier with my team.

Quote of the week

“I am the sole author of the dictionary that defines me.” - Zadie Smith

If you’d like to share your thoughts on this post with me, please do! Otherwise, same time next week? xx

interview in australian country style magazine

I am delighted that one of my favourite magazines, Australian Country Style, has featured me and my beloved late grandmother in their April 2022 issue, out today!

If you turn to page 130, there’s a lovely interview with me about my dear Nan, Beth, and her fascinating life, particularly her baking prowess. Nan’s Anzac biscuits have been a huge favourite with my friends and well wishers over the years, and the recipe is also shared in this issue, together with some sweet pictures of Nan in her youth. The shoot was styled beautifully, with vintage tea cups, a touristy tea towel and knitting, all things that remind me of her. It was such a thrill to see it!

Thank you again ACS for featuring us - and if you pick up the issue, I hope you enjoy it!

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Looking forward to

The release of Sophie Hansen’s new book on Monday! I have her other two and they’re both just lovely. Is there anything better than the anticipation of a new book that you already know will be brilliant?

Going for my first run in my new running shoes, which arrived today. Honestly, the last pair I bought wore out so quickly, and I have been feeling the roughness of the trails through the soles for months now. This is a long overdue purchase!

Reading

The Brownie Diaries by Leah Hyslop

Planet Simpson by Chris Turner - I haven’t read this book since 2004 when it first came out, and I had forgotten how brilliant it is, and how timeless/prescient so many of its observations are.

Do Inhabit: Style your space for a creative and considered life by Sue Fan and Danielle Quigley

Markkula Center for Applied Ethics: The ethics of fiction writing (PhD related, obvs!)

A Writer’s Diary by Virginia Woolf

Why I Write by George Orwell

Sydney Review of Books: Circuit and The Writer’s Clutter, both by Vanessa Berry

Listening to

TIDAL’s Baking Beats playlist - I really like lo-fi music for cooking, reading and working to.

Rethink Moments with Rachel Botsman: Trust Issues/Vulnerability is not a Weakness

Unlocking Us with Brené Brown: Accessing joy and finding connection in the midst of struggle, with Karen Walrond

BeWILDered: Self-Doubt and Creativity

The Creative Penn: Your Story Matters with Nikesh Shukla and Dealing with Self-Doubt and Writer’s Block with Dharma Kelleher

Happy Place: Clover Stroud

The Tim Ferriss Show: Interview #366 with Neil Gaiman (Neil loves fountain pens and Leuchtturm notebooks too!)

Eating

Noodles with fried tofu and orange nam jim from Ottolenghi’s Flavour

Apple and fig crumble (using my parents’ apples and my own figs) smothered in this.

Otherwise, it’s just been tomatoes and zucchini every which way - curry, soup, risotto, pasta.

I made a batch of dukkah this week which is fabulous on top of avocado toast, or just with good crusty bread and olive oil. I also like it sprinkled over hummus and cucumber rolled up in a wholemeal flatbread, which has been my regular work lunch this week because cucumbers have been plentiful, thanks to our generous neighbours.

I also made stewed apples (for more crumble, or maybe for porridge), pickled tomatoes and pickled cucumbers.

Picking

Zucchini, tomatoes, beans and silverbeet from my own garden, and our neighbours invited us to go over to their garden and pick whatever we wanted as they’re away and didn’t want the vegetables to go to waste. So there were also cucumbers, in addition to more zucchini and tomatoes!

Watching

Ma Rainey’s Black Bottom (Netflix) - what an incredible film, beautifully acted and written. A powerful reminder of why art is so vital, and the terrible price we sometimes pay in the pursuit of it. And Chadwick Boseman’s monologues are all the more powerful knowing that he must have had his own mortality in mind as he shot those scenes, as it was his last film. What a loss he has been.

Black Mirror (Netflix) - I enjoy surreal, futuristic dark comedy that still feels like it takes place in the real world, and this hits the spot while feeling terrifyingly prescient.

Call My Agent! (Dix pour cent)(Netflix) - safe to say we are now completely addicted to this fabulous show, and have also started learning French on Duolingo again.

What do you think - is being off social media agreeing with me? ;)

Wearing/applying

I bought some new jeans last November and they are the best I’ve had in recent history - Curve Embracer by Jeans West. I highly recommend them.

New Vitamin C serum and a new night cream - I may return to the old favourites if these don’t pass muster but so far so good. I’ve had an occasional mild bout of maskne and Go-To’s exfoliating swipeys cleared that up within a day, so I will have to restock those as I am perilously close to running out.

Apart from having them shaped regularly by a professional, I’ve never paid much attention to my eyebrows but a beauty editor friend recommended Rimmel London’s Wonder Last Brow Tint for Days and I’m not sure what it is but (I think) I look more polished and put together on the days I use it! Very easy to apply. I, obviously, use the blonde shade.

Thinking about

My friends currently in isolation/quarantine because their children caught covid at school. I know at least four families in this situation at the moment!

The fact that when I was born, if my mother had wanted to get a passport, she would have needed my father’s permission to do so. Australia didn’t change that law until 1983. That blows my mind and frankly makes me incredibly angry. I love writing historical fiction but oh my god am I glad to live in this time, as a woman, despite how far we still have to go.

An essay I started writing this week about superstition, friendship and the writing process. I’m going to have to dig deep for this one. It will be interesting!

Favourite experiences of the week

Getting a Wordle in two guesses - and Tom got one in ONE! I am yet to experience that phenomenon.

My monthly seminar with ACT Writers - this month’s lecturer was Claire G. Coleman and WOW, what a powerhouse she is. So generous, insightful and fun to learn from. “Don't be afraid to write garbage” was one of her many pieces of pithy advice.

Meeting up with my new PhD supervisor, who is actually an old acquaintance from London! One day we will share the incredible story of how our paths crossed and now have crossed again. It makes me believe in magic.

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GRATEFUL FOR

The world has felt very wonky and fragile these past few weeks (and years), so it goes without saying how grateful I am to be safe and healthy. But this week I was also especially grateful for a quiet place to work while I had a deadline, and a kind and understanding husband who made me lunch and brought me tea at regular intervals.

IN AWE OF

Nature. It’s the best reset button.

READING

Meanjin Quarterly: How writing can shred you

Sydney Review of Books: Ditching the New Yorker voice

Smokehouse by Melissa Manning, a magnificent collection of short stories set in a part of Tasmania not far from where I grew up.

An Onion in My Pocket: My Life with Vegetables by Deborah Madison. A dear friend bought me Madison’s Vegetable Literacy for my birthday many years ago and it’s one of my favourites - I didn’t know anything about her though, and now I do! Foodie memoirs are such a comfort genre for me, I find them really cosy and fun to dive into for bedtime or rainy day reading. I loved Madison’s exploration of her life through food, vegetarianism, Zen practice, travelling and working in restaurants. I particularly enjoyed her recounting of when she was basically the assistant to a fairly eccentric woman who lived on the east coast of the US - as I had met many similar characters on my own travels through that part of America, I could picture it all very clearly! I also loved her chapter on her most memorable meals, which I might have a go at writing about myself sometime.

LISTENING TO

Mary Lattimore’s Til A Mermaid Drags You Under - I’ve had this song on repeat all week, for writing, yoga, and meditation. It’s just exquisite.

Wild with Sarah Wilson: This is why you’re finding the world too much, with Johann Hari, Oliver Burkeman: 4,000 weeks, it’s all we’ve got in this lifetime, folks! and David Whyte: the insta-calm of poetry and asking beautiful questions. I love this podcast. I’m constantly in awe of Sarah Wilson’s passion, integrity and fierce intelligence. And her guests are pretty interesting too!

I wrote SO much this week and therefore cycled between all my writing playlists - I have four. A general one (heavily leaning on Einaudi, Frahm, Richter and Hutchings), a Morning Pages one, a “moody and dramatic” one (where I really want to stir up some big emotions, possibly even cry while writing) and a “writing beats” one which is chilled house and dance and more for editing or corporate/freelance writing, where my brain needs to be more alert and focused rather than completely lost in its own world.

EATING

Bruschetta - one of my most favourite things to make and eat this time of year, when tomatoes are at their fragrant, juicy best. And the smell of fresh basil just makes me swoon. You seriously couldn’t get a more delicious, satisfying meal from such a small number of ingredients. If you have grown tomatoes yourself and they’re ready to pick, eat them like this. Mine were still warm from the sun.

A summer tomato and green bean curry (pictured) - all homegrown produce, braised in mild spices, tamarind, coconut milk and curry leaves. Absolutely delicious, though when I make it again I will add potatoes to make it slightly more substantial as it was a little liquid from all the tomato juices (though the broth was beautiful). Let me know if you want me to write up the recipe.

Tofu fried rice (several times!)

Vegan banana bread

I also cleaned out the freezer and made breadcrumbs from all the end pieces I had stored in there, and now have a giant jar of crunchy crumbs ready for an autumn of gratins and pasta bakes.

DRINKING

I’m a bit of a fan of the Twinings Infuse bags for cold water (though, they come in plastic, SIGH) and this week I tried the blueberry, apple and blackcurrant flavour, which I think might be my new favourite. Fruity but not sweet, just how I like it!

I’ve also rediscovered T2 Tea’s New York Breakfast - with soy milk, honey and a pinch of salt. Divine.

PICKING

So many tomatoes. Zucchini verging on marrowhood. Green and yellow beans, cooked to a melting softness in the aforementioned curry. Celery, getting thicker and prouder by the day. Figs, though the netting has obscured their ripeness from me and therefore there were many past their prime rotting in the bottom of the pot, but a feast for the ants. Strawberries are still cropping nicely, and swiping one as I water the garden in the morning or evening is a delightful treat - these are without a doubt the best, sweetest strawberries I’ve ever eaten in my life.

My parents also brought round more tomatoes, zucchini and apples. I’m going to make Pip Lincolne’s spaghetti with roasted tomatoes tonight, and zucchini relish and stewed apples over the weekend.

WATCHING

Call My Agent! (Dix pour cent)(Netflix) - I think I am more obsessed with this show than I was with Pam and Tommy. Such a finely written and acted comedy about the French film world, and more specifically a Parisian talent agency and all the hijinks the agents and clients get up to. We’ve laughed so hard watching it. It’s lovely to see Paris again too - the Paris I remember. It’s seriously brilliant and I highly recommend it!

WEARING/APPLYING

Country Road sweatshirts - I have two (navy and citrus) and live in them. They’re perfect for this in-between time of year where it’s 28 degrees one day and 15 the next!

THINKING ABOUT

A book I saw in a country charity shop two years ago, in the Before times, only just. I really wish I’d bought it and I wonder if it’s still there. I might take a road trip next week and find out…though, with the price of petrol at the moment, perhaps not.

FAVOURITE EXPERIENCE/S OF THE WEEK

A 9km bushwalk with my friend and her dog…and getting an ice cream afterwards!

I also loved having my mum over for coffee and aforementioned vegan banana bread. I know I’ve been back for three years now, but the idea that my mum, who I often went years without seeing, can now just pop round to my place for a coffee is still a novel one, and utterly delightful.

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Figs on my tree. I think this time next week they will all be ready to eat.

Grateful for

Health. Safety. Love. Enough to eat, clean water.

More granularly, I was grateful for the kind words and encouragement from my friend and fellow creative writing PhD candidate who just gets it, as it’s been a bit of hard slog this week. Also deeply grateful for this Charlotte Wood interview where there were two very comforting things said that I really needed to hear:

“It’s taken me a very long time to trust that the book will show me how to write it if I just pay attention. If I don’t freak out too much, if I don’t resist what’s happening as I write…but it’s hard to trust that, because a lot of the time you’re throwing stuff away because it’s wrong! With the first draft, the only thing I can do is go with it.”

“I’m always telling younger writers to normalise rejection. It’s not something that you can avoid and it’s not something you should attach too much meaning to. Your work will find its way if you pay attention to the work. The best way for me to deal with rejection is to go back to my work. When I’m really dug in to a work, all of that anxiety about the outside world and what people think of you just drops away. Which is kind of why I write, I think.”

In awe of

Those in the medical profession. How they stay so calm, professional and caring through it all.

Reading

Frankie Magazine: Where to recycle your clothes and shoes in Australia

The Saturday Paper: Bruce Pascoe on why we should bring back Aboriginal food industries

The Audacity: The Ladies Room by Nancy Powaga - “Listen, you can’t tell a person’s gender based on how they look, and you shouldn’t assume or tell someone they’re in the wrong bathroom.” A very moving and powerful piece. I particularly appreciated Nancy’s point about how all forms of oppression are connected.

The Planthunter: A Message From The Flood Zone - “I have read many peer reviewed scientific papers about the link between a warming climate and extreme weather events like flooding and bushfires. I knew, intellectually, that events of this nature would happen in my lifetime. But knowing something intellectually is very different to living it.“

The Conversation: The new IPCC report’s grim predictions, and why adaptation efforts are falling behind. This is rather terrifying reading.

My Body by Emily Ratajkowski. The perfect read to follow bingeing the Pam and Tommy series.

Listening to

Black Magic Woman: Interview with Reconciliation Australia’s CEO, Karen Mundine

ABC Conversations: Dr Anne Aly’s passion for justice

Life Examined: Alain de Botton and the complexity of modern day love

Eating

One-pan orecchiette puttanesca from Ottolenghi’s Flavour (pictured)

Crowd-pleasing Tex Mex casserole (perfect vehicle for leftover cooked rice, FYI)

Tinned tomato risotto - but this time with fresh tomatoes from the garden, and I veganised it.

I also turned some of the huge pile of cucumbers my neighbour gave me into a pickle, which we’ve eaten with tofu and rice so far. Homegrown cucumbers are indeed a revelation.

Drinking

This jalapeño and lime soda is nose-pricklingly tangy and really good! Perfect with Friday night nachos, which seem to have become a thing.

Picking

Silverbeet, chard, spinach, strawberries, tomatoes and… celery! A friend gave me a celery plant during the national lockdown of 2020, which I kept in a pot until a few months ago, when it became increasingly clear it was confined and starting to suffer. I planted it in the ground and it has thrived. Instead of being more like a herb that I’d use as a parsley substitute, it has become quite substantial. Hence I am now harvesting pencil-thick stalks of celery.

Watching

TV-wise, not much! The last episode of Pam and Tommy (Disney+) which I am still reeling from and a bit of chain-watching The Simpsons (also Disney+) because we haven’t watched it for 10 years and suddenly have hundreds of episodes we’ve never seen, which is a huge novelty. I’ve also caught up with my YouTube favourites in my lunch breaks…but that’s about it.

Wearing/applying

Despite Tasmania lifting the mask mandate for indoor retail spaces, I am still wearing one everywhere.

My Bell Jar t-shirt and favourite old Jack Wills hoodie.

Yoga leggings and smart jumpers for WFH (I know - JUMPERS, when it was 27 degrees last week) and posh jeans and dresses for the office. Which nobody sees unless I’m walking to the kitchen or the library, as I’m all alone in my office. Which is not a bad thing when you’re trying to write a book, but I do miss seeing people. As masks are mandated in any shared indoor spaces at uni, which I fully support, either everyone is WFH or coordinating it so we’re not in the office at the same time. It’s just what we have to do right now but it is a bit lonely.

My Vitamin C serum has run out but to be honest I wasn’t wild about it so I’m on the hunt for another…

Thinking about

Things I’m looking forward to. It’s the only way to stave off the despair and overwhelm - but, as Sarah Wilson put it in her excellent newsletter, maybe we should be overwhelmed. We should surrender to it, because then we will stop being so tolerant of the intolerable. Maybe then things will change.

Favourite experience/s of the week

Coffee with my PhD friend. Starting a new embroidery. Listening to compositions for the violin from 1815 by an early Tasmanian composer in an empty room in the library, marvelling at the two centuries that have passed, at how humanity has been here before and it will be again.